Fear of rejection. I am sure this is something which has affected many of us, and honestly, this is a huge one for me.
I feel as though I have had a lot of rejection in the past which is why I have such a stigma around it now. I have ended up hurt on many occasions, which has led me to create a huge barrier when it comes to certain things.
This isn't me just talking about romantic relationships though, this is also friendships, family things, work related issues. There are so many scenarios I can discuss where fear of rejection has stopped me from doing or saying something I wanted, and I am pretty sure this is why I was so unaffectionate for so many years.
This is something I really want to work through however, and I feel like stepping out of my comfort zone when it comes to certain situations is a good place to start, to not hold back and let myself be exactly who I want to be, and say what I want to say.
I will surround myself with the right people, so that there won't be any judgement or negativity, and if I am rejected, I am going to try and deal with the situation way better than I have in the past. Instead of looking at it as a negative and picking myself apart, finding all the faults within myself, I will try to see it as a learning curve, and use it as a way for me to grow.
Of course I cannot predict what scenarios are going to crop up, but I do know it is how we deal with them which determines the outcome. Although I come across confident, that isn't necessarily how I feel inside, and honestly this is something which has consumed me for such a long time, and is something I really want to move past.
Even this year I have had to deal with situations which have almost set me back, and of course there have been extremely tough days and feelings which I wouldn't wish upon anyone, but I feel like every day I am becoming a stronger person, and that in itself is such a beautiful thing.
To anybody else fearful of rejection, join me in putting ourselves out there, and being true to ourselves and the things in life we want. After all, if we don't then we will never know what could be ❤